hello! so I feel alot better about myself, but I think that is because I try to not think about the things that are going wrong in my life. whats new nothing really... well twice a week know I am a mother of a 4 month old and a sitter of a 2 yr old. got to go

Hello everyone, so I feel that eventhough I have what most women want in life I still feel so empty and bored. I have a great husband, a beauitful baby boy, a car (not the best, but I have one), clothes to wear, food to eat and a wonderful apt roof over my head (it's not the house that we were supposed to have bought last week...thats a whole nother story). But this is the first time in 7 years that I have not worked and gone to school full time. I almost feel worthless, that I can't help provid for our family. I know being a mother and raising a son is a full time job and that in itself should feel rewarding, but sometimes I just don't feel that. I also think that it is difficult for my husband; to have all that pressure of being the only one to be able to provide for our family, having to work up to 6 days straight and up to 12 hours a day. I think that it would be alot better if we had our friends and family with us here to support us and to help take care of our son so I could work part-time or try to go back to school. That's another thing I want to go back to school to get my master's. Becuase I can't do anything with a Ba in Psych. What to get my master's in? I have no idea. I would love to do psych, but UofO doens't have many options that I was hoping for. So should I look into something else? And the process in of itself is so time consuming and hard. I just don't feel that I have the time to do that with a new born. I wish I could get some more answers from UofO than what I have gotten. I went there the other day running around the whole campus, people sending me all over the place saying " they will have that info, no they'll have that info, go here, go there" finally I gave up and so did Davin. I love my son soooo much, but it almost seems that it would be alot easier to do school or work, finish and do what I want if I didn't have him. DUH! UH! I have to get used to that. I would never trade him for anything in the world. It's just hard for me to be home all day. I get bored. That is so terrible! Sometimes I wish that I would never opened my mouth telling my husband that I wanted to live here. There are both pros and cons to living here in oregon. I guess I just have to get used to it though cause nothing is going to change; we don't plan on moving back to california probably ever!